Boxes have replaced dressers and nightstands.  Mattresses sit on the floor.  Old toys en route to new homes whisper memories of little boys.  A rainbow of threads is scattered under the kitchen table where my friend and I spent three days making not just curtains but memories.

We’ve said our goodbyes and yet we are still here tying up the loose ends.  It makes for a strange state of mind.  Today, I sat on the floor folding my laundry as if it was an ordinary day.  A day where I would wake up in my bed, a bed that is no more.  A day where I would sit at my desk, a desk who days are coming to an end.  A day where I would school the boys on the couch, a couch who has moved on.  A day where I would drive the streets I know, the streets that I will miss.

For a moment, I wanted it to be any ordinary day.  There is so much beauty in the ordinary when we see with our hearts. I desperately wanted the boxes and bags to disappear.  I wanted to slip seamlessly back into my routine.  I wanted to know, as much as is possible, what tomorrow would bring.

I held onto the laundry on my lap as if it were an anchor.

Peel enough layers and there is fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear that paralyzes and moves me.  Fear that smothers and ignites me.  Ignites trust.  Trust in a God who loves.

Meow Cow has taken to napping in his travel bag.  It seems he is trying to tell us something.

We said our goodbyes.

Yet we are still here.

But not really.

Love and Laughter,

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I'm Jenn and I'm so happy you stopped by our little corner of the web. My favorite moments are cuddling with my boys, listening to the purrs of my cat, and sipping warm cups of tea. The smell of orange blossoms conjures up delightful memories of childhood even though I grew up in Indiana hundreds of miles from citrus groves. I love animals and when I'm stressed I dream of owning a goat farm. I love art, road trips, books, and food. Vintage clothes make me ridiculously happy. Red lipstick is my friend.

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8 Responses to “Limbo”

  1. Michelle Says:

    Love and {{Big hugs}}


  2. Julie Says:

    Jenn, what an amazing journey to take with the loves of your life!! I am super excited for you and your family. Your writing is beautiful. When I get the time I enjoy reading your blog. What you write is inspirational to me as well as heart warming. What a beautiful, selfless, loving woman, mother and wife you are. Bon voyage old friend!!



  3. [email protected] Says:

    It’ll be a great year!!!


  4. Elizabeth Molina Says:

    Meow-cow??? I thought your cat’s name was Sunny????


  5. Deb (SmoothieGirlEatsToo) Says:

    Beautiful- holding back a tear.


  6. Mom Says:

    Looking forward to “following ” the journey.
    Big blessings sent your way. xo


  7. Angie Says:

    Just found your blog! We started full timing the same time as you. We have 2 boys and 2 cats. Very much the same feelings we had in leaving our house, the emptiness, the unknown. God is good!


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